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Just finished writing another answer to a discussion question for my masters class. I feel like it was another useless post that I barely learned anything on. I didn’t have time to do the associated reading, so I had to do what I’ve done a lot lately and just go directly to where I knew the answers would be and B.S. my way through to 500 words. I can do that. No problem. The problem is I don’t feel like I’ve learned anything. I’m sure I have, but it just doesn’t feel like it. Oh well, get this degree and then get into the certifications. That’s the goal and the plan, as long as this kid doesn’t foil my plan half way through.

My wife is already starting to complain about things I’m not doing and we haven’t even had the kid yet. “I’m not going to be able to pick up after you once the kid comes.” Two things..The first one may shock some people and to my future child, this has nothing to do with you personally. Heck, you’re not even born yet. This was and still is my personal take on having kids. I did not want them. The only reason we are having one is because I made a promise of compromise with my wife the day I asked her to marry me.

The second thing is, I told here before we even started to try and have a kid that if it came in the middle of my class, that I was going to have to stop my class in order to help out. She, of course, reacted very non- nonchalantly: “Oh no you won’t, it’ll be fine. I can do it. We’ll cross that bridge when we get there.”

Well we aren’t even there yet!

Sometimes she really gets on my nerves. I remember a time when she called her Uncle a space cadet. I really should have seen that as a red flag because it’s not just her Uncle, it most definitely is her too. For example, I don’t know how many times I have explained to her that the word “squadron” doesn’t have a “t” at the end of it (which she thought it did for some reason). Still, just today, she pronounces it “Squadrant”. I just do not understand how her brain doesn’t take something learned and progress to the correct thing for the next time. It is unfathomable to me. If it were a life or death situation, she would be dead in 5 minutes.

Apparently I’m in rant mode tonight.

I went to see someone about my stress on Tuesday. It wa a good talk. It was nice to be able to get some of what is going on in my life off my chest. She basically said I need to run, and she’s right. I need to get back into what I know I like doing, and something that involves exercise. It’s just very hard to find the time, and it’s only going to get worse.